Time Flies

I can't believe it's been so long since I posted on this blog. Alexander is just about 5 months old. He will turn 5 months on June 4th. So much has happened in Alex's world since the last post. First and foremost, he is a happy and healthy little baby boy. He is very smart and very loving. He was having issues with spitting up since the day he was born, so we took him to a gastroenterologist. The gastro guy told us to put 1 teaspoon of rice cereal in every 1 ounce of formula he gets. Right now he is up to 7 ounces of formula in every bottle. He is, afterall, a growing boy! He's doing really well with trying to sit up and he LOVES to stand and bounce. So much, that he makes himself sick with all of the bouncing. He has an excersaucer, a jumperoo, a bouncy chair, and a rocker chair and loves all of them. He also loves going for walks in his carriage. He started solids about 3 weeks ago. So far he has eaten carrots, green beans and squash. This weekend we attempt sweet potato. Alexander absolutely loves his cousin Grace. When she walks in the room it's like no one else exists. He watches her and listens to her with such intent. And she just loves him. She cals him her "pal" and "sweetie pie". When she walks in the house she runs straight for him and gives him a big hug and kiss.

In the past few weeks Alexander has begun rolling over from his back to his stomach non-stop. But he can't seem to get himself back to his stomach. He's like a turtle on his back (but opposite). And sometimes, when he is in his crib and he rolls over onto his stomach, he lifts his head up and peeks over at my in the bed. I try to duck down so he doesn't see me and cry. It usually works. He's a great sleeper. Ever since he was about 11 weeks old he has slept through the night. And sometimes I even have to wake him up in the morning to feed him.

Below are some recent photos.

9 Weeks Old

It seems like just yesterday that I wrote my previous post and Alex was 3 weeks old. He is now 9 weeks old and going GREAT! He eats well, he sleeps well, and he is such a good boy that you hardly know there is a baby living in the house.

I did have some issues with him around 4 weeks old. He was spitting up a lot and having some difficulty breathing after his bottle so I took him to a gastroenterologist to be checked out. He recommended 1 teaspoon of cereal for every ounce of formula in his bottle to thicken it up. So far it has been working pretty good. I alternate between rice at night and oatmeal during the day. Mostly because the rice was binding him up so the doctor thought the oatmeal might jump-start his system. He is also on Pepcid to help with the spitting up but I am going to ask the doctor at his next appointment if we can discontinue that. I don't want him to be on medication forever. Not to mention, it is expensive.

Thoughts

I can’t believe its been 3 weeks and 3 days since I gave birth to my son, Alexander James Prince. He blessed us on Monday January 4th, 2010 weighing 8lbs 1oz and 21.3” long. After many hours of labor, he arrived via a c-section at 4:11pm, which just happens to be my birthday!

The first two weeks were really rough for me. The hormones had me crying almost non-stop for anything and nothing. The emotions that a woman goes through after she gives birth are so intense and no one can ever prepare you for them. I had serious doubts that I could do this, raise a child. I had serious doubts if I had made the right decision about having a child, and I had intense anxiety about the nighttime. Thankfully, the hormones have leveled out and the emotions have calmed down. I still have my moments but I don’t breakdown in tears every night like I was.

Life with a newborn is not just a 24 hour job, it is the hardest job I have ever had. To have a little human being be totally dependant upon you for survival is unimaginable. He needs me to feed him, he needs me to change him, he needs me to hold him and comfort him and make him feel safe. And, unlike a 9-5 job where you can go home at the end of the day and put your feet up, there is no break from this job. If you are tired, or sick, or sleep deprived, it doesn’t matter – you still have to get up and make that bottle and feed the baby and make sure he burped and then change his diaper and then get him to go back to sleep – at 3:00am!

Don’t get me wrong, this whole experience is rewarding and amazing and truly magical, but there isn’t anything in the world that can prepare you for it. Raising a child as a single mother by choice is also challenging. I am thankful that I have my parents to help out with the feedings and the diapers, but at the end of the day, the responsibility lies all with me. It is my responsibility to make sure my son is fed and changed and happy, and that is a lot to take in. But I am learning, day by day, to appreciate the little things in life. Like when I stare into his eyes and I swear he can see me and then he gives a crooked half smile that I know is probably a result of gas or something. But in that moment, nothing else matters because I created this perfect little person who I fell in love with at first sight and will love with all my heart for the rest of my life.